Mommy Guilt - Snippet of the day!

Darling V,

You would have realized by now that I am actually a lazy person and if there is one person who can make me do things it is you. I am trying hard, but then I end up most days thinking that I would do better tomorrow. Did I play with you enough? Did I talk to you and tell you stories? Why did I check Whatsapp in between, because of which I could have prevented that fall? Am I doing the best? I keep asking these things to myself.

I understand it is the mommy guilt and it will happen even if I am a superwoman. Just wanted to let you know that I am trying and I will keep trying.

Love,
Amma

Stepping into the New Year!

This is going to be a slightly longer post, because I missed posting for past 3-4 days.

Dear V,

You turned 1 and I just cannot believe it. Yesterday I went through the videos and photographs, and saw you transform from a wee lil one to a toddler, who has a very strong mind of his own. I do not want this to be a sort of document of your milestones, because I feel they are over-rated and fussed about too much. It is okay if you are a little early or late with them.  

You will find out in a couple of years that we are not big on birthdays - mostly its a normal day for us. So, you did not have a big bash on your first birthday. We just had a small cake and snack do, with just a few folks. Turns out that you are like us - you enjoyed and readily jumped to everyone, making me wonder where the boy with a terrible stranger anxiety vanished.

You like savory stuff and do not have a sweet tooth (well, the two lil ones that have popped are not). The fussiness with eating continues and it looks like a battle which we will take on in the coming years too. I love it how you have wrapped your dad around your fingers. Thank you for showing me a side of my husband which I never knew existed.

Words of wisdom - these are things that I learned the hard way!

1. Whenever you get some money, try to save a little portion of it - do not spend it all.

2. Do not hesitate to say sorry if you are wrong. At times, even when you are right just so that you do not hurt someone/or if it helps in mending relationships.

3. Never comment on someone's appearance unless it is giving them a compliment. 


Loads of love,
Amma

P.S - Promise that the next post won't be this long.

Out of sight - Snippets for a lil boy!

Dear V,
Now that your Ammamma is here, I have been leaving you with her everyday for a while - 2-3 hours. Today, I left in the morning for some work in the bank and came a while later to see you cozily sleeping, snuggled against her. Mom says you were good - happily playing with her, enjoying your bath and even sleeping without nursing. (No! I am not leaving you and getting back to work anytime soon)While I am happy that you could manage so well without me, it also made me realize that letting go is easy for children. It is us parents that struggle with it.

Love Amma,

P.S - When you see people throwing trash anywhere, go and pick it up, and put it in the bin in front of them. I have realized that it might be one of the ways they learn.

The curious face - Snippet of the day

V,

You had your curious face on the entire time we were in the mall - it was quite an effort to restrain your little hands from pulling stuff off the aisle. You also had your first auto ride today.

I do not mean to be preachy here, but then there are small pieces of advice that I feel I should share. Of course, you can choose to take it or leave it - but I will put in effort to instill them in you.

Say your 'Thank Yous' - not just to the people who help you, but even to people who are doing their job - like the courier guys, the housekeeping staff, the auto driver, the security bhaiyyas.

Love,
Amma

A year old - Snippet of the day

Realized that I do not do great with blogging after repeated failures. Here I am again with a snippet series. Hope I do better.

Dear V,
You just had your first pirannal (the star birthday, mallu birthday or as we call it - the payasam wala birthday). We have gone through a lot together this year, glued to each other. Now, when you are almost a year old, I understand that you will slowly drift away - when you take your first steps, when you discover a new toy/object, when you jump away from my lap! Letting go is hard, but that is how it is, though I will always lurk around and watch you.

Love,
Amma